How do YOU see yourself?

Right, a totally superficial post!

I have always thought that I see myself, and people I have known for a LONG time differently to how other people see them. For example, my mom has a really big really dark birthmark on her face – I have been looking at it for almost 30 years, I don’t see it anymore. At all. I bet it is one of the first things that someone just meeting my mom would notice. I still see myself the same way I saw myself when i was about 15 or so… I don’t see myself as a “woman” … i’m still a girl. Even though, I’m pretty sure that people I meet for the first time now don;t see me as a 15 year old girl! :p


A few months ago, a bunch of bloggirls got together to do a photoshoot for Sass Designs, and I was one of them. Last night I got the photos back, and I was looking at them… and I saw an elegant lady with lovely brown hair, smooth skin, dreamy eyes and a soft smile looking back at me… OMG! is this what i actually look like? For real?? No way! I even asked Peter if I really look like this!?


When I look in the mirror i see a girl with untidy mousy brown hair, bad skin, small eyes, skew teeth, a short body and skinny legs. I see fat stubby fingers and an overbite. I see pasty pale skin and ugly brown freckles. I look at my glasses and i hate the fact that I have to wear them all day every day. (Granted I look rather different when I wake up and when I am on my way to have photos taken by a professional!)

Then, last night I get these photos of this rather attractive girl woman and I wonder which one i really am…

How do you see yourself? Are you surprised when you see photos of yourself? Or maybe of your kids looking like grown up little people, and not the babies you still see.


* photos are by Hannalee

Comments (7)

cat@juggling actJuly 19th, 2011 at 3:20 pm

I can promise you that you are as beautiful as those photos.

I do not like most photos of myself, but I do like the way I look more than I did 5 years ago – and you know why? Because I started to like myself.

And I will forever be a girl – I like the term girl. I am not a woman. Girl has potential and growth. Woman seems stagnant.

alidaonlineJuly 19th, 2011 at 3:57 pm

” … and I saw an elegant lady with lovely brown hair, smooth skin, dreamy eyes and a soft smile looking back at me…”

That is exactly how I would describe you. With a bit of girlishness thrown in for good measure.

adminJuly 19th, 2011 at 4:02 pm

Ag thanks guys… bit of an ego boost today! :)

@ cat, good to know you also still think of yourself as a girl! Woman/Lady just sounds so old!

Sally-JaneJuly 19th, 2011 at 9:21 pm

Well my blog is Pink Hair Girl which I guess shows I always feel a bit like a girl at heart
And I have pink hair! It surprises me sometime because of course I know in my brain that I have pink hair but I don’t see it everyday so it is something I notice LOL
Reminded to be me though

You look beautiful, young attractive, slightly shy but confident

Jeanette VersterJuly 20th, 2011 at 9:34 am

Such beautiful photos :) but then you are a beautiful woman :) can’t wait to do your wedding

AngelJuly 20th, 2011 at 11:34 pm

I don’t think anyone sees themselves the way others do… I still think of myself as a young woman, like late teens early twenties! I think my minds’ eye got stuck there… and when I look in a mirror I want to have a heart attack at all the wrinkles and the grey hair and the age spots an and and…
I think you’re lovely.

MelAugust 9th, 2011 at 5:15 pm

i can so relate to this post….i recently had pro photos done too and was gobsmacked. my friend (bless him) promised me VERY LITTLE retouching had been done but HELL, this woman was lovely. Sometimes its good to step back and appreciate ourselves. you look like someone I would like to know. you look serene and quietly confident. I cant see one ounce of the woman you describe…the mousy one? nO!

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